Angie Houtz

Not Getting Over 9/11

on September 11, 2020

Originally published on September 11, 2015

Almost everyone remembers exactly where they were and what they were doing on September 11, 2001. I am no exception. In fact, every time I walk into the Rayburn House Office Building, the place where I was when I found out that the world had changed forever, I think of that sunny morning 14 years ago.

Contrary to the advice of one mission speaker I heard a couple of years ago, I do not intend to “get over” September 11. I believe that I owe it to the victims of the jihadist attack that day —  aboard American Airlines Flight 11, United Airlines Flight 175, American Airlines Flight 77, and United Airline Flight 93; at the World Trade Center and the Pentagon; and, of course, the firefighters, police, and other first responders. I do not intend to “get over” September 11 because it was the day that everything changed.

In June I visited the World Trade Center 9/11 Memorial Plaza for the first time. The twin reflecting pools are the focal point of the 8 acre Memorial Plaza. The pools, that are each nearly an acre in size and feature the largest man-made waterfalls in North America, sit within the footprints where the Twin Towers once stood.

Each pool has a massive pumping system that blasts 26,000 gallons a minute over the 30-foot deep black granite walls, according to an article in the New York Post. The Post also says that 16 pumps circulate 480,000 gallons of recycled water in each pool.

The 911 Memorial website notes that the names of every person who died in the 2001 and 1993 attacks are inscribed into bronze panels edging the Memorial pools. This is “a powerful reminder of the largest loss of life resulting from a foreign attack on American soil and the greatest single loss of rescue personnel in American history” it declares.

And it is powerful. Extremely powerful. I moved around each pool, stopping at every single panel and reading each name. When I read a name that I recognized — such as Todd Beamer, Jeremy Glick, Charles Burlingame, or Barbara Olson — it was like a kick in the gut.

When I found Angie Houtz — a young woman from my church who was killed in the attack on the Pentagon — I was sad, but also proud of the godly civilian senior analyst for the Chief of Naval Operations Intelligence who was doing a great work both at the Pentagon and in ministry to the homeless in Washington, DC.

When I stopped to think that each of these names, thousands of names,  perhaps dozens listed with “and unborn child” — represented a real person with a life, a family, a story — it was overwhelming.

I am sure I annoyed many people — people who were annoying me with their cavalier attitude towards the Memorial. I could not fathom taking smiling “selfies” while standing in front of the names of the victims of jihad. I glared at people who had thoughtlessly placed their Starbucks cup or entire backpack on top of the names of the dead. And I engaged a couple of little girls who were practically laying on top of a panel of names, whose parents didn’t seem to know any better, and demanded of them, “Do you know that these are names of dead people? People who were killed by bad people?” I was really awful, but it made me feel better to believe that possibly I had given them something to think about.

September 11 is not meant to be “got over.” To learn from, to open our eyes, to form new alliances, to understand more fully our persecuted brothers and sisters around the world for whom 9/11 is a regular occurrence. . . these are the fruit of September 11 for me.

  1. Comment by Pudentiana on September 11, 2015 at 10:49 am

    You get over a tooth ache. You get over a cold. You get over an altercation with a friend, but one should not forget the evil which was done to innocent, defenseless people that day. It is our responsibility as humans to pray, work, and not keep silent. When we “get over” 911, we will cease to be human.

  2. Comment by faithmcdonnell on September 11, 2015 at 12:09 pm

    Amen, amen. It is part of a pathology which, sadly, infects even Biblically orthodox churches…because of desire for mission and evangelism. Mission and evangelism cannot be based on lies and deceit and denial. @Biblicalmissiology

  3. Comment by Justin Jurek on July 9, 2018 at 7:08 pm

    And what of the evil that this wicked country committed in the name of 9/11? What about the torture, the unjust wars, the support of brutal regimes in Pakistan and Israel all in the name of “fighting terrorism”?

  4. Comment by Donald on September 16, 2018 at 6:40 am

    Justin – Until the various mainline denominations do their job effectively, “making disciples of all nations,” they have no business advising either the secular nations nor the captains of industry in how to conduct their affairs.

    Get back to me on this when the PCUSA once again has 4,000,000 members.

  5. Comment by Donald on September 16, 2018 at 6:36 am

    Shortly after the attack, it surfaced that one member of our General Assembly Mission Council actually wondered aloud if the PCUSA’s continual screed against military spending “somehow contributed to our lack of preparedness for these attacks.” But that moment of moral and spiritual clarity quickly faded and the PCUSA’s GAMC and Washington Office returned to their predictable rhetoric.

  6. Comment by Ross on November 5, 2018 at 12:47 pm

    Not getting over it just shows immaturity . It’s in the past. And for the record your nation has done much worse to innocent people in the Middle East, so who are you to cry about it? Seriously. USA are the real terrorists. But I suppose an American would not have the ability to understand. Also, the more you keep it within you the more it hurts. That’s certainly a fact. Thank you all the same.

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